Ellen is a flirty, vivacious bisexual. She, like so many of her fellow escorts, has picked up nude and tantric yoga on the side. She does what she does because she enjoys it, she explains, and not in hope of gaining attention from others, be they male or female. She loves attention from both men and women, but doesn’t want anyone thinking she isn’t genuine about her beliefs and turn-ons.
“People don’t understand yoga,” she says. “People here the word ‘tantra’ and they get nuts. They start picturing that rock star making love to his wife for twelve hours at a time, or whatever the story was. The fact is, tantra and yoga work together, because they both operate on and with your body. The reason I love yoga is because it doesn’t just strengthen and tone my body and keep me in the best sexy shape, but it also enables me to get very much in touch with my body and what it can do. The better I know myself, the better I can serve my clients, because I know what I’m capable of and where my limits are. These things define who I am and that’s not negotiable.”
“I’m not changing who I am for anyone,” she reiterates. “I can’t see running your life for somebody else’s approval. It’s never going to work that way. You’ll drive yourself insane before you’ll accomplish anything. And at the end of the day, you can’t make everybody happy anyway, so why should you make yourself miserable in the process? Someone’s got to be happy, so why shouldn’t it be you? The fact is, I’m bisexual. I’m equally attracted to both men and women. I think it’s the best way to get the best of both worlds. You’ve probably heard that in nearly every description of bisexuality you’ve ever read, but it’s true. I love the soft, supple curves of a woman. I love how her body feels pressed up against mine.”
Ellen goes on, “When it comes to women, I like knowing that we both understand how to make each other feel good, how to bring each other pleasure, because we’ve grown up as women and we understand the terrain. But I like the strength of a man, too. I like the feeling of a man all hard and masculine up against me. I like how men smell. Give me a masculine force any day, especially when I want to feel his hands on me enjoying me. And I like the way men kiss, the way they explore you. But that also compares to how a woman kisses. Women are sensual and soft and when you press your lips against a woman’s lips, it’s one of the nicest feelings in the world. Now you see, I hope, why I don’t want to give up either one. I just couldn’t choose, and I don’t want to.”
Ellen continues, “The best part is, in this modern world of ours, I don’t have to choose. It may be unfair, but when you’re a young, attractive woman, and you’re attracted to other young, attractive women as well as men, your bisexuality is very much accepted. It doesn’t face the kind of cultural or political debate that bisexuality might, sometimes. And you know what? I’m okay with that. It means that I get what I want, and my dates get to enjoy it… so why would I complain? I’m pretty lucky and I realize that fact.”
Ellen is very open about her sensuality. “Honestly,” she says, “If there is any fantasy you want, if there is any experience you’ve always wanted to have, if there is something you’d like to try in or out of the bedroom, you should do it. There is no reason not to. Whatever is holding you back right now, whether it’s fear or inhibitions or something else, you should work on discarding that. If you are having trouble acknowledging your inner desires, then try to overcome that. Once you can embrace the things that make you tick, and once you are in touch with your own inner desires, you can truly please yourself. And the dirty little secret is that it’s very hard to please another person if you are not also very happy with you and your place in life. In other words, if you take the time to please yourself, to fulfill your own needs and desires, you will be better able to do that for someone else.”
Ellen believes the most powerful thing in the world is the spark between two people who are into each other. “It’s wonderful to be able to establish that connection,” she says of her own life. “It’s thrilling to be able to build on that and take it to some other level, some next level. So much of our lives is spent wasting time. If we would all focus more on finding each other, being kind to each other, and making those connections, we would all be much happier as people and everything could progress better for us as a society. But of course we will never make a perfect world. We just have to keep at it and see how close we can get.”
Ellen knows that her personality and body type aren’t for everyone. “I am very sexy and I know it,” she says. “That means I can also handle rejection. If you look through the listings and you see a girl you like better than me, that’s not going to upset me. A guy likes what he likes. He doesn’t have any more say over that than you do. You can’t tell a man what he thinks is sexy. It’s a determination he, and his body, make on their own. I wish we understood it better, but until we do, there will be demand for lovely models. And you can’t stop that. And on top of that, why would you want to? It just isn’t natural to force that.”